Being Yourself, No Matter What

Okay- I don't expect to post here regualarly, but lately....hmmm how to explain this in real English here...People have soo many Rules and Regulations for both themselves and others, and for us with OCD, it can be out OCD saying that ALONG with others. Now...okay- I m gonna link to my blog post on my Devianart account which I haven't actually written on since that day in November...

I Broke Out of That Shell- Nov 12, 2012


OCD can tell you many lies in your mind (despite the fact I know of people who shall remain nameless....who make my OCD look soo tiny, his head's spinning)

Really, if you can control your OCD, with or without extra help from others (ie- Dr. Bellows...)  you know- why let other People tell you how to act, what to watch. You know- there's a so called "notorious" movie from the early 70s- which I caught on youtube while it was still on there...and honestly, it's about 10 times TAMER then what some other's make it out for you to believe. Plus, for crying out loud- gee- since when was it my business to know someone else's decisions beside my own that were made Long before I was even concieved? (I need Skype's drunk smiley now)..

The movie for me, I don't have to agree with the whole movie to say, I enjoyed it....It's a real simple story to it too and the story of many of our young men who were drafted into Vietnam.

Call me a bad girl if you want to, but....Here's to enjoying rare hard to find treasures of movies!!

Jan 15th, 2013

I honestly think that "treating" OCD like it's some...bad thing (okay- it can be living hell sometimes the lies it can tell me) I look around at differnt OCD sites and it's like...me, I know I think entirely different then say someone without any mental problems.  I'd rather just accept it for what it is- when my OCD is REAL bad, now that's  when I'll be more then happy to yell at it, have Johnny lasso it away and tie it up and put it in jail! (Very good imagery for this cowgirl to refocus on :) )

Honestly, if I can manage to have it at a fairly good level where it's manageable- I can live fine with it without some evil Duck Soup Rufus T Firefly pychologist to go off telling me what to do (not to condemn anyone that does go to one)

OCD- with a creative mind like mine, honestly if I can't stop thinking of a scene I just wrote between Mark and Lucas in a Rifleman story, then it's obviously not something I'd want fixed. Why fix something that isn't broken? The trouble for us with OCD, is when we can't seem to get an irritating irrational thought out of our head, as much as we want it to leave BIG TIME.

The true struggle is when that happens, and the thoughts lie to you like some western outlaw; or acts like a spoiled brat teenager and if it doesn't get what it wants you get an explosion.